You Are Not Alone

Life is not always the most beautiful thing.

In fact, it can get downright ugly at times.

It's not easy to rise above what is happening around you, but if you truly want a life of worth, a life that has meaning and purpose, then you are choosing to go against the current and you simply must find your inner strength to rise above what is around you.

There is no other acceptable option for me than to have a beautiful, full life of worth. It doesn't matter how hard it is, how alone I feel or how beaten down I get, I will never surrender. There are days, I wake up feeling utterly alone. I can't even hear my guides on these days. People seem to come out of the woodwork wanting things from me, memories of my twin flame haunt me, dreams of abandonment and the family I'll never have try to get under my skin, but if I stop, if I surrender to the pain, the sadness, the torment, either within or that is around me, then I have chosen to betray myself and that is something I just can never do.

Therefore I do what I must to keep going. I work hard every day at healing, self examination, self love, expressing my soul through my writings and letting my twin flame go every time he comes back to me.

I bear the loneliness of my life the best I can. I focus on helping others, creating stories, I go to Disney for restoration. I know myself, but even still there are moments so dark, I cannot tell which way to follow. In these moments I used to panic and question everything that I believed. I have learned that I cannot do that. In the dark, it is the most important time to stay the course. This has been a very long, excruciatingly painful process for me, but no matter, I keep going.

I believe it's a choice to live a life of magic and beauty. I believe in the law of attraction, not instead of a god, but as a gift from god. I believe he created it to give us everything we ever desired. I believe our choices day in and day out matter. I believe that you can achieve the impossible, you just have to be willing to be damn beaten up along the way, and you can't ever quit, no matter what.

Everyday we wake up and things beg us for attention, people want things from us, life moves fast and we often feel dragged around, alone, and exhausted. Still, everyday ordinary people make extraordinary choices and change their lives, changes the lives of those around them. There is nothing that can limit you, but you.

Let today be the day you start to change your life.

No matter where you are on this road, always remember these things - You are not alone. You are stronger than you know. You have much life ahead of you rich with abundant blessings. Aho and Amen and so it is!    

Victim No More!

We are not a helpless victim to our thoughts, our emotions, our loves. We are not victim to loss and death. We are not created to be victim to anything.

You were created to be a strong powerful being, sharing your light and your gifts with the world and there is nothing that can stop you if you determine to fulfill your purpose in this life.

Yes, sometimes we get stuck and need a loving push to help us keep moving, but when we refuse these pushes, when we determine to stay stuck exactly where we are, whether it's because we're waiting for someone else to give us the push, or to simply be there beside us before we move forward, or you're just enjoying your crappy state of mind, then that's you creating that reality. Creating a place where nothing is good and all is dark, you are alone and nothing can help you.

None of those things are true.

We have absolute control over ourselves, none of us were created for a life of sorrow, we were created for love and joy and victory. Yes, there are moments of sorrow and stress along the way, some moments so deep and so overwhelming that we feel we will never get through them, but I promise you, if it is your intention to get through, then you will. You may not feel as though you're moving, but you are.

Never give up and I promise you, you will see the sun again.

However, when we sit and tell ourselves, by our thoughts, words and actions, that we will never get past this, then we don't. It is in that moment we are condemning ourselves to never get out of the dark, never see the light again.

No person, no moment, is worth giving your entire life to.

You may think, I can't because my twin lame left me, I can't because I was raped, I can't because my husband was killed, I can't because my child won't speak to me... No! You can't because you chose it.

You are not victim to a person or situation, you are only victim to your own thinking.

Today is a day for breaking free.

Today is a day for remembering the song that was placed in your heart at creation, the light that used to glow from your soul. Today is a day for remembering who you are and what your true purpose to this world is.

We need you. I cannot state that strongly enough.

You are stronger than you know and you've stayed still long enough.

Victim no more are you... victim no more!